Saturday, April 25, 2015

Justin Gabriel's 5th Angelversary






April 20, 2015
The Desert Foothills
S. Fort Apache Rd and W. Warm Springs Rd
Las Vegas, NV












Sunday, April 20, 2014

Justin Gabriel's 4th Angelversary


"When Tomorrow Starts Without Me''

by David M. Romano




When tomorrow starts without me

And I'm not there to see,

If the sun should rise and find your eyes

All filled with tears for me.


I wish so much you wouldn't cry

The way you did today,

While thinking of the many things

We didn't get to say.


I know how much you love me

As much as I love you,

And each time that you think of me

I know you'll miss me too.


But when tomorrow starts without me

Please try to understand,

That an angel came and called my name

And took me by the hand.


And said my place was ready

In heaven far above,

And that I'd have to leave behind

All those I dearly love.


But when I walked through heaven's gates

I felt so much at home,

When God looked down and smiled at me

From His great golden throne.


He said "This is eternity

And all I've promised you",

Today for life on earth is past

But here it starts anew.


I promise no tomorrow

For today will always last,

And since each day's the same way

There's no longing for the past.


So when tomorrow starts without me

Don't think we're far apart,

For every time you think of me

I'm right here in your heart.

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

A Walk to Remember

I walk to remember
the steps you'll never take.
I carry you with me
as I firmly plant my feet.

Our trek started long ago,
before my belly swelled.
You were a love that grew-
like butterfly wings that beat.
You'r gentle flutters then became
kicks upon which I would dwell
And I would talk to you , sweet babe,
about the world you soon would meet.

The sun always shone upon us then-
when you were in my womb.
And I was eager to show you the world
that would have been your home.
How you'd have loved the sun shining-
blue skies without a cloud.
The autumn leaves turning-
the snow falling all around.
The flowers in the summer-
would have filled your eyes with smiles.
And the rain that might have fallen
would have caused you great surprise.

You would have traveled far with me.-
holding me by the hand.
And I'd have shown you all I could-
more than I can imagine.

You hold my HEART tightly now,
as though we're holding hands.
How far we've traveled, little one-
and my life with you has been sweet.
For I carry you in my heart,
as I firmly plant my feet.

-Kathie Rataj Mayo

Sunday, April 21, 2013

A Mother's Grief


A Mother's Grief
by Kelly Cummings 


You ask me how I'm feeling, 
but do you really want to know? 
The moment I try telling you 
You say you have to go 

How can I tell you, 
what it's been like for me 
I am haunted, I am broken 
By things that you don't see 

You ask me how I'm holding up, 
but do you really care? 
The moment I start to speak my heart, 
You start squirming in your chair. 

Because I am so lonely, 
you see, friends no longer come around, 
I'll take the words I want to say 
And quietly choke them down. 

Everyone avoids me now, 
I guess they don't know what to say 
They told me I'll be there for you, 
then turned and walked away. 

Call me if you need me, 
that's what everybody said, 
But how can I call and scream 
into the phone, 
My God, my child is dead? 
No one will let me 
say the words I need to say 
Why does a mothers grief 
scare everyone away? 

I am tired of pretending 
my heart hammers in my chest, 
I say things to make you comfortable, 
but my soul finds no rest. 

How can I tell you things 
that are too sad to be told, 
of the helplessness of holding a child 
who in your arms grows cold? 

Maybe you can tell me, 
How should one behave, 
who's had to follow their child's casket, 
watched it perched above a grave? 

You cannot imagine 
what it was like for me that day 
to place a final kiss upon that box, 
and have to turn and walk away. 

If you really love me, 
and I believe you do, 
if you really want to help me, 
here is what I need from you. 

Sit down beside me, 
reach out and take my hand, 
Say "My friend, I've come to listen, 
I want to understand." 

Just hold my hand and listen 
that's all you need to do, 
And if by chance I shed a tear, 
it's alright if you do to. 

I swear that I'll remember 
till the day I'm very old, 
the friend who sat and held my hand 
and let me bare my soul. 

12/8/03

Saturday, April 20, 2013

Justin Gabriel's 3rd Angelversary




Thinking about my son on his 3rd angelversary.
Not here but never forgotten. 
My faith gives me hope we will see each other again. 
Hug your loved ones a little tighter today....

-Daddy
 





Wednesday, March 13, 2013

They Say There is a Reason

They Say There is a Reason

They say there is a reason,
They say that time will heal,
But neither time nor reason,
Will change the way I feel,
For no-one knows the heartache,
That lies behind our smiles,
No-one knows how many times,
We have broken down and cried,
We want to tell you something,
So there won't be any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of,
But so hard to be without.

~Author Unknown

Sunday, January 20, 2013

What's Mine Is Yours



What’s Mine is Yours
Lyrics by Katherine Nelson 

Counting down days since nine months last summer
From the baby quilts to the sunshine light-switch cover
All the plans she made
Wall-papered dreams she made for him someday

Doctor hardly glanced her way shut off the monitor
As he walked out the door said “You’re young, there’ll be others”
No sirens or loud screams
No rushing or comforting
It was just over

On the longest road toward home
She parked in the church lot and cried
And said
What’s mine is yours
It’s always been

What slips through my hands has your fingerprints on it
I’m letting go
Remembering
Though Heaven’s doors feel shut they’re wide open
What’s mine is yours

....

In this life we come and go and say goodbye
But there’s more than we can see with our own eyes
And when my faith’s a thread-bare blanket 
and I can’t take it anymore
I remember

What’s mine is yours
I’m letting go
Remembering
Though heaven’s doors feel shut they’re wide open
What’s mine is yours