Justin Gabriel's 5th Angelversary

April 20, 2015

The Desert Foothills

S. Fort Apache Rd and W. Warm Springs Rd

Las Vegas, NV

Justin Gabriel's 4th Angelversary

"When Tomorrow Starts Without Me''

by David M. Romano

When tomorrow starts without me

And I'm not there to see,

If the sun should rise and find your eyes

All filled with tears for me.

I wish so much you wouldn't cry

The way you did today,

While thinking of the many things

We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me

As much as I love you,

And each time that you think of me

I know you'll miss me too.

But when tomorrow starts without me

Please try to understand,

That an angel came and called my name

And took me by the hand.

And said my place was ready

In heaven far above,

And that I'd have to leave behind

All those I dearly love.

But when I walked through heaven's gates

I felt so much at home,

When God looked down and smiled at me

From His great golden throne.

He said "This is eternity

And all I've promised you",

Today for life on earth is past

But here it starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow

For today will always last,

And since each day's the same way

There's no longing for the past.

So when tomorrow starts without me

Don't think we're far apart,

For every time you think of me

I'm right here in your heart.

A Walk to Remember

I walk to remember
the steps you'll never take.
I carry you with me
as I firmly plant my feet.

Our trek started long ago,
before my belly swelled.
You were a love that grew-
like butterfly wings that beat.
You'r gentle flutters then became
kicks upon which I would dwell
And I would talk to you , sweet babe,
about the world you soon would meet.

The sun always shone upon us then-
when you were in my womb.
And I was eager to show you the world
that would have been your home.
How you'd have loved the sun shining-
blue skies without a cloud.
The autumn leaves turning-
the snow falling all around.
The flowers in the summer-
would have filled your eyes with smiles.
And the rain that might have fallen
would have caused you great surprise.

You would have traveled far with me.-
holding me by the hand.
And I'd have shown you all I could-
more than I can imagine.

You hold my HEART tightly now,
as though we're holding hands.
How far we've traveled, little one-
and my life with you has been sweet.
For I carry you in my heart,
as I firmly plant my feet.

-Kathie Rataj Mayo

A Mother's Grief

A Mother's Grief

by Kelly Cummings 

You ask me how I'm feeling, 

but do you really want to know? 

The moment I try telling you 

You say you have to go 

How can I tell you, 

what it's been like for me 

I am haunted, I am broken 

By things that you don't see 

You ask me how I'm holding up, 

but do you really care? 

The moment I start to speak my heart, 

You start squirming in your chair. 

Because I am so lonely, 

you see, friends no longer come around, 

I'll take the words I want to say 

And quietly choke them down. 

Everyone avoids me now, 

I guess they don't know what to say 

They told me I'll be there for you, 

then turned and walked away. 

Call me if you need me, 

that's what everybody said, 

But how can I call and scream 

into the phone, 

My God, my child is dead? 

No one will let me 

say the words I need to say 

Why does a mothers grief 

scare everyone away? 

I am tired of pretending 

my heart hammers in my chest, 

I say things to make you comfortable, 

but my soul finds no rest. 

How can I tell you things 

that are too sad to be told, 

of the helplessness of holding a child 

who in your arms grows cold? 

Maybe you can tell me, 

How should one behave, 

who's had to follow their child's casket, 

watched it perched above a grave? 

You cannot imagine 

what it was like for me that day 

to place a final kiss upon that box, 

and have to turn and walk away. 

If you really love me, 

and I believe you do, 

if you really want to help me, 

here is what I need from you. 

Sit down beside me, 

reach out and take my hand, 

Say "My friend, I've come to listen, 

I want to understand." 

Just hold my hand and listen 

that's all you need to do, 

And if by chance I shed a tear, 

it's alright if you do to. 

I swear that I'll remember 

till the day I'm very old, 

the friend who sat and held my hand 

and let me bare my soul. 

12/8/03

Justin Gabriel's 3rd Angelversary

Thinking about my son on his 3rd angelversary.
Not here but never forgotten. 

My faith gives me hope we will see each other again. 

Hug your loved ones a little tighter today....

-Daddy

 

They Say There is a Reason

They Say There is a Reason

They say there is a reason,

They say that time will heal,

But neither time nor reason,

Will change the way I feel,

For no-one knows the heartache,

That lies behind our smiles,

No-one knows how many times,

We have broken down and cried,

We want to tell you something,

So there won't be any doubt,

You're so wonderful to think of,

But so hard to be without.

~Author Unknown

What's Mine Is Yours

What’s Mine is Yours

Lyrics by Katherine Nelson 

Counting down days since nine months last summer

From the baby quilts to the sunshine light-switch cover

All the plans she made

Wall-papered dreams she made for him someday

Doctor hardly glanced her way shut off the monitor

As he walked out the door said “You’re young, there’ll be others”

No sirens or loud screams

No rushing or comforting

It was just over

On the longest road toward home

She parked in the church lot and cried

And said

What’s mine is yours

It’s always been

What slips through my hands has your fingerprints on it

I’m letting go

Remembering

Though Heaven’s doors feel shut they’re wide open

What’s mine is yours

....

In this life we come and go and say goodbye

But there’s more than we can see with our own eyes

And when my faith’s a thread-bare blanket 

and I can’t take it anymore

I remember

What’s mine is yours

I’m letting go

Remembering

Though heaven’s doors feel shut they’re wide open

What’s mine is yours

A New Year of Precious Moments

We have been collectors of Precious Moments since we've been married.  We've collected a few that have symbolized significant occurrences in our life.  There will be a limited release of "Mommy's Love Goes With You" which we lovingly placed by our few tokens of remembrance.

http://www.preciousmoments.com/content.cfm/product/Mommy's-Love-Goes-With-You

Mommy's Love Goes With You

#690007

Winter 2012

- Author Unknown

October 15, 2012 - Light a Candle

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day

Precious Child

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Precious Child

Karen Taylor Good 

In my dreams, you are alive and well

Precious child, precious child

In my mind, I see you clear as a bell

Precious child, precious child

In my soul, there is a hole

That can never be filled

But in my heart, there is hope

'Cause you are with me still

In my heart, you live on

Always there never gone

Precious child, you left too soon

Tho' it may be true that we're apart

You will live forever... in my heart

In my plans, I was the first to leave

Precious child, precious child

But in this world, I was left here to grieve

Precious child, my precious child

In my soul, there is a hole

That can never be filled

But in my heart there is hope

And you are with me still

In my heart you live on

Always there, never gone

Precious child, you left too soon, 

Tho' it may be true that we're apart

You will live forever... in my heart

God knows I want to hold you, 

See you, touch you

And maybe there's a heaven

And someday I will again

Please know you are not forgotten until then

In my heart you live on

Always there never gone

Precious child, you left too soon

Tho' it may be true that we're apart

You will live forever... in my heart

A Bear-y Special Package

"An angel baby's cuddle sent to a family in need."

Our Molly Bear arrived.  I can't even remember the date I signed up for the waiting list.  There are over 2,000 families waiting to receive this very special bear that is created to weigh exactly as their precious son/daughter did.  I cannot believe that it arrived on the eve of our rainbow's birthday.  How special is that?

http://mollybears.com/our-story/molly-bears-story

June 26...

Sometimes when I dream, I imagine what it would be like to have an almost two year old little boy in our home.  I imagine the laughter, the hugs, the kisses... my heart swells with love and grief once I realize it could never be.

There Is A Special Angel

There is a special Angel in Heaven

that is a part of me.

It is not where I wanted him

but where God wanted him to be.

He was here but just a moment

like a night time shooting star.

And though he is in Heaven

he isn't very far.

He touched the heart of many

like only an Angel can do.

So I send this special message

to the Heaven up above.

Please take care of my Angel

and send him all my love.

-Unknown Author

Father's Day 2012

Let me tell you a story

Dear child of mine

It's a story of you

Just as much of us

You started changing our lives

The moment we found out

That we were to be

Expecting you

We started trying to prepare

Anticipating your arrival

Making plans and wishes

Dreaming of how you would be

We hoped that you'd be

A pretty calm child

Knowing how excitable

Both of us are

Your mother hoped

You wouldn't be as stubborn

As we sometimes are

I hoped you had a small streak

I hoped you had

A talent for music

A love for the art

Your mother hoped

You had my smarts

We dreamed of your room

How it would look

What would be in it

Where you'd sleep

I started making sure

I was planning for you

For the future I wanted

To provide

Now you've left us

Parents still

But without you

Our little angel

I want others to know

Your story too

So that people understand

A parents true love

No matter how long

A child is with us

We are parents still

And forever more

We'll remember the love

We had for our child

No matter how many

Years go by

Their brothers and sisters

Will be told of the one

Missing but never forgotten

Always in our hearts

So know you are loved

Though you are gone

Know you changed us

Know you made us strong

Our love as parents 

Isn't based on one day

But the days we remember 

How you were cherished

And that everyday

You are in our thoughts

Loved and remembered

We are parents 

Because of you

-Father of Chase Austin Miller

http://community.babycenter.com/post/a28168671/a_poem_my_husband_wrote_for_fathers_day

Mother's Day 2012

Angel of My Tears

How do you love a person

who never got to be, 

or try to envision a face 

you never got to see?

How do you mourn the death of one

who never got to live.

When there's nothing to feel good about

and nothing to forgive?

I love you, my little baby,

my companion of the night.

Wandering through my lonely hours,

beautiful and bright.

What does it mean to die before

you ever were born,

to live the lovely night of life

and never see the dawn?

Ah! My little baby,

you lived like anyone!

Life's a burst of joy and pain.

And then like yours, it's done.

I love you, my little baby,

just as if you'd lived for years.

No more, no less, I think of you,

the Angel of my tears.

-Unknown Author

Justin's Name In The Sand

Justin's Name In The Sand at Christian's Beach

Sending Our Love On Your 2nd Angelversary

Today marks 2 years when we said Hello and Goodbye to our son Justin Gabriel. 
Although time never heals anything, I'm reminded everyday 
when I look into my daughter's eyes that after a storm... 
God provides a rainbow...
-Daddy

An Eternal Memory Of A Much Loved Son

This is for someone wonderful

as loved as one could be

for you were everything in life

you meant the world, you see

And sometimes life can be unkind

when hearts are torn in two

but nothing ever could compare

to the pain of losing you

But all the love you left behind

forever will live on

and so until we meet again

rest peacefully, dear Son

-Author Unknown

Butterfly

A butterfly came floating by and I thought I knew his face.

He landed on my shoulder and spread his wings of lace.

I looked and saw him smiling as he winked and flew away,

I'm sure I heard him whisper, "We'll meet again one day".

-Author Unknown

CarlyMarie's Seashore of Remembrance

Another April

We would have given you the world

but you got heaven instead.

-Author Unknown

Do You Know?

Do you know how hard it is
To hold a baby who doesn’t cry?
Do you know how hard it is
To tell that baby Goodbye?

Do you know how hard it is
To look at an empty bed?
Knowing your child should be there
Resting his sleepy head?


Do you know how hard it is
Feeling you’re to blame?
And no matter what they tell you
You'll always feel the same.


Do you know the heartache
Knowing he's gone for good?
And feeling that you didn't
Do all the things you could.


Do you know how hard it is
To hear that it's Gods will?
Do you know the emptiness
When your child is born still?

From Take a Sad Song and Make It Better (Facebook Non Profit Organization)